Jesus Christ, Praise Thé Liars....

Jesus Christ, praise thé liars I am grateful For thé things I have every day, I sing within several genres, but if this outcome is what I have to take, I Think I have to secure my mp3 Songs ahead..... Voice Detectors and voice changers, to accuse Me. Ohhh God, pathetic. So pathetic to make anyone God, that I would steal a single Song. I have had brake ins here and in an old apartment I had, and I can prove it in Court God, there are so many ways to offer People things, mostly they choose things making a human sad, confused and others. I have given and given, Self lived on zero and nothing, so why dont they choose right things, one single time My Dreams God, is Music and Charity work abroad, thé last I had to use when I didnt get a Job, now this group are trying to take thé last I have, my Music, and my BEING, a k a my ID, It cant be right Amen

My voice....changed? dont even try....

DEAR FANS!!!! BE AWARE OF HACKERS WHICH ARE USING VOICE CHANGERS AND VOICE DETECTORS. On Me! They claim all over thé Web (theory( that I am saying things I havent Said, doing things I havent done. I suspect they are contacting supporters worldwide claiming this so that they get an opportunity to steal my ID in thé End , if they get Me off thé Web, they Will Do it. Believe Me, as it was an offer to Me to 'pass' over to a criminal group, that I would agree within that I had stolen covers. THEORIES they are sitting here in my house in real time every day sending out Clear lies what I say. In a karaoke site on thé net, they have lowered my possibilities to sing my own voice, which normally is a bit higher. All can hear my voice and I can prove that I never ever have stolen any covers at all!!!!! I would never ever Do. I have given away my Music For Free at soundclick as I suspected some have been Selling my Music on Spotify, and maybe on other sites too (mentioning US part of ITunes....) In any ways I suspect they have recorded Me either by thé equipment (read sivanto.weebly.com) have in my body, or via thé walls, third option is that they have put something in my speakers, as they wanted Me to stop recording with headset.....this group is really a shame!!!!! So much I have given, For Free on both songweavers and soundclick, nearly 35 to 40 Songs... give up!!!! Leave my life and Music intact, I dont belong to you Sivan

When Will they realise?

My newest creation :))) Folks, I am trying and trying to act normal, having a sick Gang after Me stalking and hacking Me every day, underlying threats and all.... To tose of you can not see thé Picture, here is thé address ( I am hacked on my phone so this maybe Only affects Me.... https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjrSKfKUxmemLYXwrA4zw7oXM4WewpxBpaKnOSTNI-KdtRpdC2TP-Ub3OKw6P0FXrjZqW3VyGoe3Kahr9zOfFWbUwuoNsUZJ95dQyLLz03VBY5Fxr6YYgNjPoa0AnrAU-lpRPsVhieHD05U/s220-h/PicsArt_1343924571232.jpg Read thé rest of thé 'drama' at sivanto.weebly.com Still, I decide over my body myself, and I also decide with whom to stay...... Love, Sivan

NEW fresh music ahead

About my trip I will try to leave Sweden soon, to continue my music carrier Also there will be possible that I will be in a movie, but not sure. I will start in Europe, and later go to US. More about this later...I dont have time to write more right now. :-)))) I am continuing to walk daily, eating fresh vegetables, good food, I am using weight watchers food boxes now with half the calories in, I am also dancing inside the house, to loose even more weight. About 30-40 minutes I am exercising every day. If you hear something else...or have seen any movie clips that i am eating a lot of bad food....then it has been just temporary....even Í eat good somethimes....BUT I havent increased my weight. My blood sugar is perfect, and the doc did not even take blood tests last time so I guess he thinks I am ok. So now, I suppose it is time to show the world the NEW Sivan, during 2012. My daughter is red haired, the other one black haired, I am brown haired with a bit grey, but later I will change my look. Nobody is gonna take my ID, nobody is gonna use my ID to an ything at all. There is a girl now beside me at the library, she is trying to view what i am writing, so i changed the computers position. There are people trying to imitate my life.....it will be hard. I am not the play with--- Much Love as always, especially for YOU, my swedish radiohost ////Sivan

The Rights To My Things

Well my folks, havent been online for a long time, I suppose it is no reason for me to send some explanations in here, so far....not yet...but I will send in all the proofs needed a s a p, as soon as I have been able to leave this country. I have nothing to do on facebook with Paris, I have nothing at all to do with any forreigners from Marocko, and the guys I have loved is pure Swedish, view my youtube site youtube.com/sivanto, where I talk about Mr Smile and P.A, they are SWEDES I have a gang after me trying to force me to marry a forreign man, can be , and I said can be my x man....I dont know, but, I have been in love with my radiohost for so long now so I dont even care about these redicioulus things at all. They have hacked my phone and my computer, so I am at the library right now.....they treat me like a kid..and their main tactic is to make people believe I am a liar....just for this thing about the thinking idea, they will try to claim I am not the one, who this man knows what I am thinking, based upon my own idea written many years ago. They are making movies, false movies, we have logged them in real time syncrounus, me and my techician friend, they are making movies, false ones just to try to change this into some other people than me. But, I guess it is time for me to sigh, just the time will show that I am Sivan, that I am the owner of this material, that I WILL continue my music carrier, that I am the one and owner of all the songs written since 2005 until now. You people knowing me since all these years, can easy count with that I am NOT a liar, all theiur proofs is false, false, false. They have arranged witnesses, and other things too, so right now I dont have a chance to prove anything, also as I dont have a computer at home..... But, the time will be my winner, I never go online with lies, I have never worked that way, they just try to hide a truth, and to get me onto hospital and hide me there, to steal my ID. I am sick, sick, sick of this matter now, and also I will take back all my accounts, including facebook.com/sivan.bostrom. This is a verified account I cant reach via my own computer and phone. I will show all, later, how they systematically have arranged all this, how they have made up movies, how they have made up things behind whilst I have tried and tried to repair my computer. I also suspect they have made a false intervjue with my youngest daughter Elin, 14, they gave her a lot of things and now she doesmt dare to say the truth....she has to pay for what they gave her. Guitars, synths, furniture, computer, all they gave her, and also many of my relatives are making up lies just for the sake of money. Everything i say, they arrange so it looks like it is the opposite.....I have to smile...a little. I am so sick of this mess right now, and they have also used voice detectors (theory), sand voice recognitions, pre-recorded messages to save for the day i die. THIS is what I am delivered. THERE WILL BE NO SWEDISH HOSPITAL FOR ME. I will go abroad soon folks, continue my music, I have NEVER seriously said I will quit. And I can say...as it seems right now, my kids Sandra 25, and my daughter Linette 18, are trying (theory) to steal my ID, to use it, to use me, to use my music. Thats unacceptable I wish all a great day and be sure you all will hear from me ahead. Still fighting for the truth...I love you my radiohost, 2010, onefm, 22-02 There´s no other guy that you when it comes to thinking of a real relation (ok, I mentioned Mr Smile original, the swedish dancepartner, but he is away somewhere) Love to all, Sivan

THE LOVE OF MY LIFE

THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, MY SWEDISH RADIOHOST (ORIGINAL WITHOUT ID CHANGES) HERE I TRY TO FIND YOU AGAIN...I WANT TO GIVE YOU A SONG, I HAVE NEVER FORGOTTEN YOU, NEVER. HAVE TRIED TO FIND YOU EVERYWHERE, I GOT AN OFFER THIS NIGHT IN THE MAIL BOX, A TRIP TO NORWAY, TO ORDER HOTEL NIGHTS, BUT AS I DONT KNOW ARE THEY PLAYING WITH MY LIFE AS "JORUN" (MY THOUGHTS) THEN i DONT WANT TO ORDER ANY TICKETS. CONTACT ME, COME TO ME....CALL ME.



I love love love you
/Sivan

From my english BLOG, it has turned Swedish (.se) (and for YOU)

I am aching, I am braking, I am acting, I have attitude, I dont get, I get, I find solutions, I loose solutions, I listen to music and I change my mind, I see, I dont see. Is this life? Why do I act like this? Why? Are there anybody out there with a logical part? Someone who is like the man I fell in love with 2010? I just dont think so. He is unique... I am about to give up the believe in people, overall.

Is it really normal that a single person, with 17 years web experience , and making notes after every single change of password (from 1 week ago extra control), are FORGETTING THEM so easy? WHEN will the public realise that I am harassed? Persecuted by a man who claims he knows what I am thinking, based upon an idea I wrote with some friends many years ago, the whole idea is about putting an isotope camera in the body to see - put it behind the centra in the brain where people see, its about via signals to the brain, through equipment in the stomage, or gynecological, count every single step a human is doing, same time check the person daily to see their behaviour. The signals and the behaviour together gives you a result in what the person is thinking. Ex, you move a finger, you get one signal (result), then you go on studying the other finger for example the thumb, by viewing the person at the same time, you get another signal a s w. He has followed me for a long time, because of this my music carrier has been destroyed and delayed. I heard that I had got 2 music contracts, but they did not tell me in time.

I have written it, the idea, I am the owner of the material and it was stolen many years ago either from my computer locally, or via a computer brake in I reported to the police in 2003-2004 (have not the records now). Same time I had to cancel the bank transactions I had online and change it to ordinary papers to send in for my bills.

HOW IT STARTED -overall
It started in facebook 2010 (I was invited from a song site), he showed me underlying that he knew what I did, what I said, what I wrote, and finally it has grown to that..yes...he knows a lot what I am thinking, I admit, but NOT all details, not process thoughts (when you are thinking around things) and some more. Not the past. People have claimed me sick in my head, but the docs have said I am not, on the last tests. Here, locally, they are working their minds off to get me into hospital, I really really dont get all this and what it is about. Now they are trying to put over (theory) all this on my daughter instead (change ID, and take mine), my daughter probably have the media with her. The other day I read an article in aftonbladet plus "My mum is destroying my life"(yes I took it THIS time as it was pointed to me, if it wasnt a paper duck) I have hard rumors that she is together with a man I started to love, he will make her famous in Paris and US, and he is in my age! I am so tired of all rumors, doesnt matter are they true or not true, it is the was of acting i can not accept. How could she do that to me, I have carried her for 18 years, the other one 25. Can it really be true?

SICKNESS
I have been very very sick during the years out of this matter, 2010 i could hardly go out with my dog, before that I lost so much weight so they told me to gain weight again, I was so sick (2007) I am full of metals in the body and nobody wants to care me, the doctors doesnt want to listen as it seems when I ask why I have been so sick, and a lot of strange strange things has happened, including allergias and much more I havent had before. I am only 46, I have lost 16 kg, walking mostly every day now to keep my head high. Now I am not small, like 2007. Thereś so much to say about this, so I suppose I have to get myself a lawyer, I dont have power anymore, everything is wrong, computers, logins, viruses, phones, well you read it yourself. And to be honest, I am not stupid at computers, but not a technician either.

THIS DOC, OR THE RESPONSIBLE ONE
He probably hates me, because I told about this in public in facebook, and I never got that it was that dangerous, I thought it was a good idea, thought we could find solutions together instead of that I would report him to the police for mistreating me within the care system. I have got damages I could show up, and I am sure I have to ahead. My plan is to get abroad, and get me a doc there because no one here will admit it. I have lost a lot of hair, parts of hair where I suspect the equipment is in my body, not all hair is gone, but parts. I have lost a lot of ordinary hair on my head (I have a lot since before, but it is much thinner. I have so much metals in my body so all the pics I showed up before is true. I have a hard time to breath, and sometimes at nights I wake up and it feels like I am about to loose all air and wants to vomit. Peridically I get blue marks all over my legs, headache, and hard to see clearly. The other day I had to run to my bed because I could notfocus on the seeing, I was not dizzy, it was something happening in my head. But 5 minutes later all was ok. I thought I was about to get a bleeding in my brain, I dont know what has happened but I am quite ok right now when I am writing. Sometimes I loose the ability to spell words when I write with a normal pencil, and I am living alone so I dont say much. I dont expect anyone will feel sorry for me, but I would be happy if people could understand that I am not a liar. I defended these docs, one was working with movements, the other one with the other things. I defended them all the time in facebook, when it was a "fight" in there about me and my choices I did. (all who was there knows about it)

I just think it is unfair, to put me out of this project because I have written it, I really did, how could I otherwise know about it. All in my town knows its me, at least they have shown that attitude and behaviour, just as if they knew all about this.

I think the tactics are to make me so much bad things as possible, to make people say: Oh no, this cant be true, its to bad to be true. She must imagine it all. Ok, I let people believe that. Now lately they have spoken beside me, it can be someone coming and saying to me when we are having a discussion about something else, that "they" will go to operation. If this was something like in facebook, underlying things to show me, but avoid for others, I can say that I wont make an operation until he admits that I am the owner, at least that I think I deserve. Of course some wants me to make that operation, to take all things out, to hide the proofs, thats also why they have closed me out since January from facebook. Probably they have changed all the paths for the thinking idea, changed people, changed everything, to finally claim that I am a liar. I just ask all...why?? I could have reported these doctors already in 2010, but I did NOT. I believed in them, I believed that we would reach something interesting and I was too kind. But...I have facebook data saved, I will go through it and see. So much bad happening in there I have never experienced in my life online. Just a few days ago, I got the opportunity to download a new possibility to recover my password via phone to the gmails accounts. I have tried everything. My God, this is my idea, they have stolen it. Its so unfair.

I dont know, is it my computer redirecting me wrong, or is it really gone facebook. http.//www.facebook.com/sivan.bostrom. I have had it for a long long time, many knows the address and can check it. I suppose it can be that my computer contains viruses. I have used Avira, and the firewall Zonealarm. That should be enough for a normal user.


EXAMPLE INSECURITY
To take one example today, you can NOT "root" (get ownership of) a phone, to get a firewall to work (it demands root access), and then you are completely open to the network, anyone can place anything in your phone because the insurance are not valid if you root it. I dont know how to root it, but I have read about it on the web. My phone works bad today, I have a special hidden unit on it, I can see it but dont touch it, I revealed it by downloading apps. Some are having access to my phone, and they are manipulating my connections, changing directions from http to https a s w, changing in forms what i am writing, whilst writing. So it seems like it is easy from the companies today to sell a phone but not allowing to root, or root them already from start.


Now , finally, I have heard underlying that they want me to change ID, to "die" from all my music, and all my name, and give the thinking idea, to this group on facebook. I wont, not fully, it is not right that I must "pay" so much compared with the others. They promised me Gold in 2010, but gave me stone in the end, and as this is not enough, now they are harassing me. Also, if it not taken away, look at the blogs articles from Google....it is about hairloss, and all the things circulates among me and what I do or experience. I dont get it. If one arent suffering of persecution mania, and I dont according to a psycholgical friend we have, and other docs, one WILL get it out of this matter.

I dont take any operation before he has admitted what he is lying about. Also, one of this hidden units on my phone and computer contains (at least DID, its changeable) a folder called "personality" and "irc". Maybe he puts me out on IRC, who knows? They said 2010, as a joke, you are shared with the world. Finally I can say, I have a university education, so I am not psychological sick. I have 5 books, diaries about all this i can scan and give to the court.

I HAVE REACHED THE FINAL OF ACCEPTANCE
I have had enough of pain now, only God can care me the rest of the years I have left, I dont know how sick am I? Will I die soon, for real? I often cry, and i wonder even though i am strong. Do I have cancer out of all this? Do I suffer brain damages for life? How is it with my kidneys?? With a low income, very low,7500 sek/month I am fighting and buying tests for the blood sugar, so far it is ok. As an addition to this some have tried to claim underlying, that I have to get along with a forreigner, can it be him? The doc? My x? All are they in this group at facebook, thats my theory.

Give me my rights back, my dreams, my name, and last but not least my reputation. I worked with last I had , my voice and my creativity. The music is mine, mine, mine. I would never dream about stealing songs from others.

Me and my girls so well deserve to live a calm life. I dont think I ever can work anymore in Sweden, I also suffer fibromyalgia according to the doctors, that they have admitted. I think it was a scale 8/10, or 10/12 or something like that. Soo....I am not ok at all, physically.

I love YOU my SWEDISH radio host 2010 (22-02), I never forget you, never, believe me. My fans, I love you too, and believe, this is really me writing. The last I did in facebook in January, was to change my profile pic to my driving licence, a new one, the other one is gone from the apartment one night when I slept (still valid at the dates, but closed by the authorities). Just me and my daughter was at home..I used it at night before I went to sleep, put it back to my wallet, and in the morning it was gone. The door out was locked,,,so?? Not long ago I saw a cached site on google on the driving license, so I know it was there...now it does not work from my computer.

Well, as all can see, I dont have much power left to write now...but as all my sites closes down of any strange reason just after I have updated them....I thought I had to tell as much as possible.

Love,
Sivan (I wont change any ID folks,to become my mum, 70 years, I am keeping what has been most important in my life, to be accepted as Sivan, to be ME)

For YOU my love....:

FOR THÉ LAST TIME I NOW WRITE AND SAY:

I am Sivan Sweden Original and wherever you read on thé Web
about thé two men MR SMILE, and MR PA ,thé radiojournalist,
it is ALL about thé original Ones, and NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT
my x men Håkan, Beqir or Hevan.

I have written to you everywhere my Swedish radiohost (2010) 22-02.., my website
sivanto.se, soundclick.com/sivan, and here. Also facebook before.

ALL knows, ALL around Me knows that I have suffered abusement as
a Child...but all they seems to have, is a big joke around.
I am NOT intending to take ANY of my x men back, then thé ORIGINALS!
2 and a half year I have been through a sick world, and my power is over
stop, stop,stop, stop. Mr Smile original, call Me, you find Me at Eniro.se, or hitta.se, much love to you, you deserve it, and I am sure you would say thanks if I made you a Song.....see you, I Hope, again. Love, Sivan

Impossible to use a mobile phone...

Impossible to use a mobile phone and scroll down thé text when thé first form ends, thats a pity Blogger. You should get a scroll function at thé right side even in thé mobile version, or if I have. Something wrong at my phone.//S

Stefan, due to this issue, I could not finalize thé last message before this one, so what I wanted to add was a suitable Song for you...'I have been everywhere'., Dont you Think it is a Lovely piece of Music? Personally I love thé title....

Hugs my. Best friend
Sivan (original) :)))))))

Stefan, I am so happy that you...

....are showing Me every day how a real man Will be, act and behave. You have been helping Me forward, you have been a support to Me all thé time, you have loved Me even though I never had these feelings for you, unfortunately. You are my best friend, there are so many men in this world just living on a bad childhood, raised bad from their mother (mostly). They just have to show others all thé time WHO they are and how BIG they are, often in front of their friends. All knows, we healthy Ones, that these men are feeling themselves so bad inside, and I am really sad many Times when I see it, sometimes I laugh at their way of acting because it seems comic for thé moment.

When you are coming to thé age of 40 or 50 there are so many other values in life, and you just look down on these childish men, and sigh. One want to take them Into thé body and hug them, Tell them, now...stop fight, stop showing thé world that you are a boss and King, you are enough as you are. But, when they dont see it themselves dear Stefan, what can one Do??? I got an email this day I have been sent before, I suspect they are sending them twice to make it look as if it happened now, and not before, Its easy for Me to prove when I joined my Internet sites, but...sigh....they Will probably try anyway...I dont know how many files we have, proving that dear Stefan, so...to try to Change when I added thé sites Will just get them a possible Police report. .

To try to write my handwritten Book, steal it and put it online Will not work either...as you know we talked about to add 'hidden

My https site is probably hacked

Folks, this is thé original site of Sivans blog, I cant get https Contact from google nor from thé blog here. There is something wrong with a certificate, they say. It can be a google problem as they are updating their security now, but lets see when I get online with my ordinary Connection or from a computer. Can be that some are using my name and connect Me Only to http, and are taking over thé secure connections. I am really tired.

Sivan

hacked phone. ips and computer, what a pleasure to try to stop the truth

Truth hurts....and thé fact that he wont succeed with his issues around stealing
my ID. There is sorta 'I am controlling you and your life and I am not able to live if I cant shiw you finally that I am a King of thé hackers net' Ok, I am no technician and can never compare myself with such men, but for SURE, I Will never give up thé time perception, and what actually happened in 2010, thé promises and things they gave.

They are now repeating things happening in 2010, trying to make Me Believe that what was then is now, getting themselves false proofs, as they are arranging now, making those looking as if it was then. To stop this I am writing both online and in my hand written diary, it Will come online later. People are running here trying to make Me Believe it is 2010, but a lot of things are missing, all thé Lovely original Songs my love gave Me, as I listened to 24/7, can never make Me Believe wrong.

I always had thé radio on, so how can I forget thé originals....and how love, can I forget YOU. Never. No matter in what is happening, I never leave you P.A. I SAID ALWAYS, AND I MEANT IT, IT WAS OUR PROMISE.

I suspect I have an x man who's is haunting Me, trying to tire Me out by controlling my whole life, but...he dont know Me. Thé more he does, thé more I fight back, and thé more I Will dislike him. NO ONE can Force or convert Me Into love!!!!!!! Its disgusting. A maniacs work, to just even try with Me.....

P.A, I love you, with Celine Dion must be my Song to you this night...NEVER Think I Will forget you and never Think they Will steal my ID. I am more alive than ever. (To original P.A.B, old onefm Channel) your my King, and I wait for you no matter in what thé others have mixed up in thé form of false things they probably Will publish soon......all is not Always what it looks like...but if I Will trust thé rumors, ok, I welcome thé things they have to show, I know WHO I have been thinking of all nights.....so its not important what they come up with. Let them blacklist Me. I have nothing to fear, as you are thé one WHO has been on my mind at nights, at Days, and I have prayed. Kisses to you, and greetings to my fans,

Sivan

Blogging from thé mobile for thé first time ;))))

Hi there all
I am still connected to a 2G connetion even though I have a 3G card.
Does not feel so good, as something must be very wrong.
I am hacked I Believe. When it comes to my love, P.A, I still miss
him so much, I am longing for meeting him IRL. Regarding thé suspicions
ID theft,

I have sent my ID cards, passports for Me and thé kids to thé
responsible courthouse. Now, my Believe is that I Will get my ID back.
Its a shame to use others id:s, and as I obviously are connected to Another
IP than usual, both on thé phone and computer, its probably a hacking attempt.

Well, well, suppose this is a thing for thé local Police to investigate. Yesteray I was at a stor, called Time, here in Östersund, and they played a Song on thé radio, somerthing about shame, I related to that one because I. Went back in time to 2010, when some People did not Believe in Me, they claimed I never listened at all, I did, but I never had thé practical opportunities to Do thé things I was told....so its easy to (seing it in general now, and relating to thé Song where it was a shame that thé one never listened) blame others, without taking thé details in why, Into thé desicions. But, as with all other things, one must go on, leave things behind, try to focus more on oneself and how one are doing, than listen to crap and lies :) Wishing all my fans and People a great. Day..../Sivan

IP changes....

Folks, there is no end..."they" are waiting for all these blogs from me now, to make me write a lot, and a lot, and even more (as the connection really works today!!! :-), after that they will probably show the false "recordings/checkings" they have mixed up to their specific story. I am waiting :-))))) If it is good done, I will take it to the blog later...:-)

All the time at my operator 3, I have had IP addresses beginning with 95, 78, or 109...tonight it is suddenly beginning with 94...hahaha. I am quite sure someone else have taken over the other one, hacked or not, but of course I dont know. Its their sport, these people, to change everything right after I have written about it. Just told it because it is comic.

After when they have finished their job, I will gladly ask my friend Stefan for some assistance...:-)
Stefan, I love you my friend...I love, love, love you as my friend. =))))))
There is something about you making me SMILE so much so i can get pain in my cheaks..its your humor..I suppose you are in the same level of humor as these people I have around. :-) Or even worse...haha.

What would life be without a laugh, when all is black, and have been black for years? What would one do without that smile. When you get used, you dont have that much pain. So Stefan, looking forward of coming in your hands again my best friend. Just I am praying it will be this time. We have tried many times.

Would not surprise me, if some are imtitating all my blogs too...hahaha. To surround me, to catch me in to change my time perception. All these suspicions are coming from the time at facebook, which really have been a weird time of 2½ year. It has been hard to follow and take all these bad words delivered. So I am glad Stefan, that you all have followed all this in real time, because out there some are still underlying accusing me for being sick in my head. I am not, and I will prove it. I am humoristic, I can be mad as few over unfair things sometimes, I can cry as few, so I am following the same line as I have done all the time in the blog, and in my personal handwritten blog, which will come online later...THAT will be a surprise for those who is underlying talking about voice recognitions and voice directions. Would not surprice me if they have voice directed me. Someone told me...shut up, otherwise they will take you to hospital and give you medicals. Why would I be silent, how can they hear me legally if I talk in my apartment, and the sound is coming from there...? :-)....

Last, I believe I have an x-man thinking that if he blackmail me, and make my name black so that no one loves me anymore, he thinks he will have me in his hands...and I say to you, smile, when you heart is aching, smile...and goodbye from me forever.

Goodnight folks...;-)
Sivan

There is a maniac on the loose, for sure

Hi again fans and folks
Felt I had to write about an old storie (as all know I am always serve up things from my privacy, as much of what is happening to me, is absurd..) Some people just cant leave us alone

Many years ago, one of my daughters had an account in a dangerous place, a community, called Lunarstorm. Dirty lecherous men haunted young girls, so I told my daughter and the admin to unregister her from there. She had contact with a psycho sick man, he sent her information like if he talked to an adult woman, about his psychological problems, his sex fantasies, his bad life, which tablets he ate e t c. He was from the south if I dont remember it wrong.

After a while, he started to send her cards on the post, and haunted her from apartment to apartment we moved to, so see how it works on the web. I can only say to that man (as I suspect, and not only suspect that he is around again...) to leave my family intact! Its just an information...so that he get the chance to take that desicion to leave my family alone. I give him this chance...again.

Well, see how it can be, when you have sick people around...

I really hope he will understand what is best for him, to leave my other kids alone...

A great evening to all...=)
Sivan

A cold day in Östersund in many ways....

Brrrr....took myself a walk today in a cold Östersund, visited the insurance company, which helps people with a LOW income to pay their rent. I am so confused. During 6 years of making music on the web with good charts, I havent reached a singel penny. Soo, I suppose it is just to wait..because right now I have to take a brake int he music production of reasons I will reveal very soon.

I took my walk, as I love, and as I have done the last months to loose weight. I have lost 16 -17 kg since September 2010. I am 46 years, and have to think of my health. Checked my blood pressure last night, and it was 115/75, blood sugar also yesterday after having been eating a lot of things containing sugar, after 40 minutes it was down on 6.2, not bad! Its the walks.

Well, back to the insurance, as my daughter has moved out I am unwilling living in a big apartment and it is hard to move in here, they will not pay out anything at all right now (as of todays date) until they have taken a desicion what kinda help I will get...so sigh...sigh...it only continues...the bad.

I bought some cocacola and cigs, and when I was about to leave the store they played a song on the radio, "goodbye" (farväl, in swedish). It was a sad song, at the same time a helicopter surrounded me from above, I heard it. People were walking like crazies on the street, but I took my things and went home again to write in my log book.

About the ID theft, I have contacted the police via email, and probably some are using my IP:s, but I dont want to say anything for sure, yet.

I will start my fight back to space now, and I will ASSURE you all that I am not after to HIT any companies, or even fight, I just want to have my rights back. To my music, to my life, to my personality.

Its not hard to understand why some people possibly have been trying in realtime to record/check me, and control me, its easy to see that they have mixed up different periods in time, to make it look like if it all have happened at the same time. Thats my theory. As I have some memory loss problems I have a hard time to say exactly when things has happened, its probably mainly about hormone problems, but there are more things I cant write about yet. I have to gain and save proofs, in a secure way first, but be sure you all will probably see people present me as a liar, as I suspect they have been recorded me in some way. Just look at the old address (if it is still left, smile...)sivansverige.logspot.com. Thats only ONE of all imitations of my life, there you could read before about an angel who would go to prison.

Anyway, I really hope people will take their smart minds, and get to understand that i am not after anything at all than my ID, and of course my musical rights to my songs. There are so many ways to show that you own things, and I wont give it up...and please remember, I have NEVER entered a studio. I have ONLY made digitally made songs on the computer, after that sent it to the net, most of them are registered with STIM..
I hope all of you are having a great day, and..last...yet I havent died, it is all about the assumptions. =) I was promised something in facebook 2010, and I am so sorry but I can not love on order.

I love my P.A, until the day he calls me and tells me that he does not want to talk to me, or have any contact at all.

Much love to all,
Sivan

ID stöld!!!

Hi there folks

Today I have experienced something in my 46 years old life, someone or some are using my ID. I changed from windows 7, to linux Live cd yesterday night, because it is more easy to handle the connections. This morning I saw, I am connected to Swedish COMHEM!!!!! I have never had that operator, and I am surfing on that operator right now!!! Have contacted them via a form email today, I look serious on this matter. But, I have my passorts, my kids passports, all the id papers I need here at home. Will just fix this issues, and I will be back.

Tactical some hackers have used my ID, they have started with manipulating my phones, connected me to comhem to make it look like if I am using that connection, and that I have ordered it. Today I have put a stop at my old operator (3) when it comes to the voice speeches, my ordinary phone. I have cancelled my old phonenumber and it cant be used from today January 23-2012. The SIM is locked. I have checked the bill and it seems to be normal as of today.

Of course folks, I am about to keep my ID, so I locked the new phone I have from computer traffic and it seems to work properly now so I can use it to at least call. In time I will change all accounts, the numbers, the contact details and I will be back here in the blog. In facebook, I have not been in a long long time. Would not surprise me if they have used that too. I can also see, that mz contacts is changed in Google plus, some record companies (except one I added myself) was added. So, my suspicions that some are trying to even steal my music, seems to be true. They are probably just waiting to use my name, but as I am Sivan, as I am the owner of the music, they cant. There will be no idea at all.

I also suspect they have recorded me in some way while I was repairing my computers, after havng had a lot of problems, now they let me write online on a false connection, to make it look like if I am a liar.

I will assure all people, that I will put my idcards and passports online!!!! To show who I am. I also have insurance papers since a long time ago, I will put them online later.

I have understood that something bad is going on in my house locally, too, so I have made a daily diary as all can view here later. That will show I am following the same line every day, that I am not schitzofrenic (as I have been underlying accused of in facebook earlier, if it is still left...). I have hundreds of files saved from facebook data I can show up later.

I have collected a video yesterday, of my family, this christmas, the one with the long hair is Linette, the one in the sofa is Elin, and my mother Eva, 70 years old!


Have a good day my dear fans, Sivan is back!!
:-PPPPPPPP (To those hacking my accounts)
Love to the others
Sivan

Its hard to see googles announcements

People, today ALL is possible. When people trx to steal your songs, and yours property, they can call you sick, they can call you anything, just to finalize at the hospital, on science.
I stand up for every single little word, and soon, very soon we will reveal all this crap people are delivering.

I am not sick, so I can do without these annoucements. Logged on yesterday after having been offline for a long time, and what do I see???? Hahahahaha, I have to laugh, some people are making themselves money in writing shit in their blogs, if associating to them...lol

Well, as a public person, you must be able to take it.

I will REMIND all people reading this blog that I have been investigated by docs, telling I am healthy but MAY be in need of talks about the life I am living. There has been rumors that some kids are using voice detection on me, and sending the signal out on the net, so that it looks like if I am saying something else than I actually are doing. I am then happy that I have written down a fat fat diary, made by hand, following the same line every day, and how people, can it be possible if I am sick....?

My friends are educated all from lawyers to psycologists, and they say I am healthy, and of course I am. So now, ignore these announcements you see, and folks I have to tell you all something bad bad bad. Some people are using my ID, most probable. And have done so for a long time. Last time I got a STIM paper (music rights organisation, was in April 2011....I have contacted them today.

People are imitating my life and trying to be me, the last is that one of my daughters are having a sport to imitate all I am doing. :-)

I am 46 years old, I still have 3 daughters, Sandra, Linette and Elin. I will soon be back with pictures.....happy morning!!!!
Sivan

To P.A Original from onefm.se

Hi there
As you probably know since before, I have been in love with you for a long long time (2010), there is some issues though, people does not seem to like it, mainly on facebook. Dont ask me why. I am sad for that thing. I have my suspections where the "wrongs" is, but of course I dont take it here, I cant call you of some reasons, I have no chance to contact you at all. You know where I am, I am still living in my 3-room apartment just exactly before the big city church. I am sure you will find me, its not hard for a journalist.

Keep smiling, I would like to talk to you too, I am sure you understand why. Anytime.

This is the only way I can contact you, dont know when I go online again, right now I dont use facebook....

Feel good,
Hugs
Sivan

Mr Smile (original from 2010)...

Just sitting and watching the Gott Nytt Ar Video again to analyse myself a bit, I hope you have seen it too....? You are mentioned.


I would like to ask you something, I am sorry but I can not dance with you at Folkets Hus, I want to keep the history intact, (LOL) so no changes. But ahead, I can dance again, in some other place in town. Would like to talk to you again.

It is my wish that you are having a great time, I never forget the dark hair, the smiling eyes and your great way of dancing. The first man I have seen smiling with his eyes.

As usual I have some issues in my private life, :-) but I am sure you would understand. Life is an adventure. Lets dance!

Ok, take care, I am not hard to find..write a letter! :-) Thats most safe these days :-)
/Sivan

To you Stefan

Recently talked to you in the phone, I hope you registered what I said ;-)

Thanks for the nice words, as always, love your way from me

Take an analyse of this video, ask yourself what I want to say with it. I pray it will be respected...

Be back to me tonight with your comments. I know you have seen it before
but watch it again, tell me if you see what I see....;-)

I am totally up to analysing myself, at the moment.....important ;-)



Smile dearest,
Sivan

Hajdihoo.....back in space for a while

Hi there all

Back in space for a while. Have had some issues to come online, and privacy issues. But, as all have known I have been online very often during the years...there are some issues I have to solve now. But all knows me. And the way you write in, the way you sing in, the way you act in cant be imitated. From September to December 2011, I lost 16 kg weight so it feels kinda strange to see some announcements here about loosing weight!!! Hahaha.

Just I invite all, if the movies are still left
youtube.com/sivanto

Cant give that much info right now, but,
I will be back on track again, for sure...
During this time I wish all people good luck with their lifes
and a good day.....
Keep smiling... Pray often. :-)
Sivan

Folks, life makes me a bit in a wonder, when I see that some people in this world are missing all their chances to things in life. They are making a choice based upon wrong grounds, instead of thinking through things like an adult. If you never try, you can never win, you can never know what another human thinks about you until you have asked....no matter in which age you are. You can never ever win anything within another person by making bad things to her/him. It frustrates me to see that some in this world are loosing their minds and making wrong desicions when all they could have done was to win easy....if they only had asked and been present...

When it comes to jobs, it is different. Some jobs demands power..then you change from your ordinary life at home.
It also confuses me to see that all I am writing about is changing all the time, suddenly right after I have written it online, seems like somene wants it to look like if I am a liar. If I write that a thing is broken on the net, it suddenly works after 10 min....its so strange.

I am passing through some strange days right now, I am analyzing myself, I am talking about the same things over and over again, to check myself, and to report to the mass....that I am not scitzofrenic.

Ohhh only God should know that I believe in HIM, and no one else until I see the fact of what is present. I made some smaller bible studies yesterday....hmm. My blog has suddenly been copied...hehe :-) sivansverige.logspot.com ;-)

Ohhh folks, I am 47 this year...when will I find love? If I only could know if it is the person I loved that much making me wrong or a surrogate using his name, maybe I would not make the desicions I have done now....just wanted to say it.

So until then, when I know, I am hurted, and I have decided to change path and try with someone else. I am hurted but so much stronger than last year.

I am just sighing...sigh sigh...and saying that if someone really wants you, he comes to you IRL and presents oneself without any doubts.

Someone out there loves me, but he is to shy to come and tell me. How does it feel?

Mr Smile (Old orginal Mr Dance)...still thinking about you, view my videoblogs at youtube.com/sivanto

Jawn....nighty folks and YOU....BELIEVE IN YOURSELF I dont bite..
Sivan

Dagen D, ett nytt år (svenska - in swedish first, english below)

Dagen D, nytt år och nya visioner. Man önskar och önskar att folk ska förstå, men de visar inte minsta förståelse alls. När man inte vet vad som väntar bakom dörren, kan man inte helt enkelt gå in i olika saker.....
Jag har försökt, verkligen, under större delen av 2010, att få dom alla att fatta, jag är inte sjuk i huvudet. Jag är för snäll och velig, många gånger gör jag saker som jag inte vill, för andra, för att få lite uppskattning, för att få det där "tack" och ett leende..., det är jag. Som pappa, exakt.

TOLKNINGAR
Istället för att tolka saker rätt, tolkar folk det som de själva ser, dom ser inte sanningen, dom ser inte att jag är frisk men att jag inte får det kärleksbehov jag har inom mig utsläppt. Jag är i behov av att ge, mera än att få, och jag kommer förmodligen dö invärtes framöver, med tiden, om jag inte får ge det jag har. DET är enda huvud felet.

BEHOV AV ATT GE
Jag vet inte varför jag har det här behovet så starkt, men det känns viktigt att få vara den jag ÄR, och inte den man vill göra om mig till. Jag kommer framöver att "hjälpa till" i den här kontrollen av mig genom att flera gånger varje dag, upprepa saker jag tycker. Jag garanterar att om inga förutsättningar har ändrats, kommer jag tycka samma sak, om och om igen.

Det är enkelt att från ex. myndigheters sida, se en sak, d v s kolla alla mina beteenden, och när jag ändrat åsikt om vissa saker, tycka att jag är sjuk sett "overall", men vad man glömt är....varför? Har man verkligen tagit reda på bakgrunderna, har man frågat mig...."Siv, varför ändrade du dig"? Nej, aldrig. Man har för enkelhetens skull tänkt att....javisst hon är sjuk, in med henne på psyket.
Tänk på det folk, ett tips, ta alltid reda på bakgrunderna till varför en person agerar på visst sätt, innan Ni antar att nån är sjuk. Om jag vore ex. scitzofren, skulle jag byta personlighet kanske flera gånger dagligen. Detta skulle synas i mitt beteende, genom att jag skiftar, d v s byter ideer mitt i en mening, eller kanske helt enkelt börjar snacka om nåt annat mitt i en mening som inte har någon innebörd kopplat till det jag snackat om. Ett exempel kan vara:
"Solen skiner idag, ska vi gå ut?", "och skivan spelade bra musik" i en och samma mening. Dessa två uttalanden hör inte ihop. Alltså kan personen vara scitzofren och har under denna tid bytt personlighet.

Jag kommer kämpa tills jag blöder, för att motbevisa att jag är sjuk i huvudet.
Jag har redan min analys klar, 3 läkare (2 Hälsocentralen-läkare som känt mig under många år) (varav 1 special psykologiutbildad) har under 2010 gjort en undersökning (avancerad), de har inte funnit att jag är sjuk.

En person som inte blir accepterad av sin omgivning på grund av att denne kanske satt sig upp emot en del genom åren, bör istället få klargjort för sig att man inte accepterar att bli behandlad på vise versa sätt, och istället visad hur man anser att man ska bli behandlad. Jag har alltid varit öppen, kreativ, otroligt social, gestikulativ, pratat högt, lite impulsiv varför jag på senare år provat ta det lite lugnare för att besluten inte alltid ska behöva ändras. Jag är av praktisk natur, med 3 barn har man inte haft så många val mer än att finna smarta snabba lösningar, och känner jag att en sak har blivit för snabbt utredd, eller bestämd, så ändrar jag detta snabbt för att jag inte vill missa möjligheter m m. Det kan vara det folk hakar sig på. Min överaktivitet har kanske ibland tolkats som att jag inte ´vet vad jag vill, eller som stress. Men jag gillar när det händer saker, jag vill ha nåt på gång för det mesta.

Efter 46 år, och trots fina höga betyg och goda vitsord man inte uppnått mera än att sluta på en sjukersättning, så blir man otålig, man vill bli erkänd, bekräftad, och omtyckt...även om man säger att "jag bryr mig inte", så gör man det innerst inne. Det gör alla.

VAD JAG SÖKER, OCH OM EN MAN
Folk, återigen....jag söker kärlek och en familj. Det är det huvudsakliga och oerhört viktigt i mitt liv, har det alltid varit. Att bli älskad och omtyckt. Jag hade en man, som jag litade på, som lovade mig världen, som sa att jag kunde lita på honom, som skulle gifta sig med mig. Han kände till vad jag behövde....han visste hur jag hade haft det tidigare. Jag var så lycklig, han var så fin och värd guld för mig, men jag kanske inte kunde agera i hans värld just då.. på grund av praktiska skäl, inom tidsramarna (som jag inte kände till¨alls, och inte fick information om heller) Allt detta känns så oerhört tråkigt, jag vet att vi skulle ha "ruled the world".

SLUTLIGEN
Låt mig vara den jag är, behandla mig såsom att jag var frisk (som alla andra) så jag kan sluta försvara mig hela tiden. Ingen, ingen agerar normalt under press och kontroll även om man klarar det galant psykiskt. Ingen agerar normalt med att hela tiden slå ifrån ett underläge, med "taggarna utåt" och känna att man måste "bevisa" att man är frisk. Sist men inte minst, att gråta över hur man blir orättvist behandlad, eller plötsligt avvisad av den man älskat under konstiga omständigheter, är normalt, och ingen depression. (Enligt en av mina psykologiutbildade bekanta) (Psykolog)

Och pssst...i ett jobb....agerar man annorlunda än vad man gör i det privata.
Jag är frisk. Acceptera det, acceptera mig, respektera mig, så respekterar jag Er andra.

Med en förhoppning om ett annat 2012.
Sivan

IN ENGLISH
D-Day, New Year and new visions. You wish and wish for people to understand, but they show not the slightest sympathy whatsoever. When you do not know what awaits behind the door, one can not simply go into the different things .....
I've tried, really, for most of 2010, to get them all to make, I'm not sick in the head. I'm too nice and indecisive, many times I do things I do not want, for others, to get some estimates, to get that "thank you" and a smile ... that's me. As my dad, exactly.

INTERPRETATIONS
Instead of interpreting things right, people interpret what they see, they see not the truth, they do not see that I am healthy but I do not get the love I need is within me released. I am in need to give, more than to get, and I will probably die inside to come, with time, if I can not give what I have. This is the only main fault.

MY NEED TO GIVE
I do not know why I have this need so strongly, but it feels important to be who I am, and not the one you want to do for me. I will come to "help" in this control of me by several times each day, repeating what I think. I guarantee that if no conditions have changed, I think the same thing, over and over again.
It is easy from ex. authorities, see one thing, that is, check out all of my behavior, and when I changed my mind about certain things, to think that I am ill seen "overall", but what they forget is .... why? Have you really found out the backgrounds, they have asked me ...." Siv, why did you change? " No, never. We have for simplicity supposed to .... "yes she is sick", in with her in mind.
Think about it people, a tip, you always know the background to why a person acts a certain way, before you assume that someone is sick. If I were like. scitzofrenic, I would switch personality perhaps several times a day. This would appear in my behavior, by my shifts, ie, changing ideas in the middle of a sentence, or maybe just start talking about something else in the middle of a sentence that has no meaning attached to what I'm talking about. An example would be:
"The sun is shining today, should we go?", "And the disc played great music" in the same sentence. These two statements do not go together. So the person may be scitzofren and during this time changed its personality.
I will fight till I bleed, to refuse that I am sick in the head.
I already finished my analysis, three doctors (two HC physician known me over many years) (including 1 spec. Psych trained) has in 2010 made a study (advanced), they have not found that I am ill.

A person will not be accepted by their environment because they may have set itself up against some over the years, should instead have made it clear to themselves that they do not accept to be treated on the vice versa way, and instead shown how to view that should be treated. I have always been open, creative, incredibly social, gestikulativ, talked loudly, a little impulsive why I, in recent years tried to take it a bit easier for the decisions do not always need to be changed. I am of a practical nature, alone with three children have not had so many choices more than finding clever quick fixes, and I feel that one thing has become too quickly investigated, and determined, so I change this quickly because I do not want to miss opportunities, etc. It may be that people hook on. My hyperactivity may have sometimes been interpreted as that I do not 'know what I want", or stress. But I like when things happen, I want to have something going on most of the time.
After 46 years, and despite excellent high grades and good scores can not be reached over to stop on a sickness benefit, you become impatient, they want to be recognized, confirmed, and popular ... even if you say "I do not care ", so do you do that, deep down. Everyone does.

WHAT I LOOKING FOR, AND ABOUT A MAN
People, again .... I'm looking for love and a family. It is the main and very important in my life, it's always been. To be loved and appreciated. I had a man who I trusted, who promised me the world, who said I could trust him, who would marry me. He knew what I needed .... he knew what I had had it before. I was so happy, he was so nice and worth gold to me, but maybe I could not act in his world at that time .. because of practical reasons, the time available (which I did not know to ° at all, and did not receive information about either) All this feels so incredibly boring, I know we would have 'Ruled the World ".

FINALLY
Let me be who I am, treat me like I was healthy (like everyone else) so I can stop defending myself all the time. No one, no one is acting normally under pressure and control even if you can do it splendidly mentally. No one is acting normal to always turn off an underdog, with "tags out" and feel that you have to "prove" that you are healthy. Last but not least, to weep over how one is treated unfairly, or suddenly rejected by the one you love in strange circumstances, is normal, and no depression. (According to one of my psych educated acquaintances) (Psychologist)
And Pssst ... in a job .... you act differently than they do in private.
I am healthy. Accept it, accept me, respect me, so I respect your others.
With the prospect of another 2012th
Sivan

gott nytt år :PPPPPP

Gott nytt år! MY FIGHT WITH FAT, I WON IT.....DID SHE?

One of the songs from last year.....ALL promises!!!!!!!!!! Imagine how I feel today,,,,,read the lyrics.

Sanningen inför 2012

Hi people....there are always people in this world trying to put you OUT opf things they have promised. Promised with their heart, their sould and their minds.....they simply cant admit that they are wrong. And actually I dont mind about all thesde investigations about if I am scitzofrenic or not. I know,


He, the one I l have loved for 2 years, told me in 2010 that he would love me all my life, all the time, travel with me all over the world, he played songs for me, which made myb heart melt, completely. He has been uintil yesterday, the one I have loved from the deep bottom of myb heart. ALL knows it, but no one admits it. Cowards.

I am NOT afraid of him , nor anyone else. I know what i can, I am a singer, and i can! In dare! My second darling Mr Smile did never get the chance last year, but I have decided this 2012, toi give him this chance to meet me again .....come one baby, I say.I love me, I love the world, and suddenly.....folks, I am going from here. Just wait, Italy is waiting for me and my voice, Fuck the Spain haunting people. What is Spain for me?mNothing.....and certainly my daughter 17, will NOT go anywhere to get famous by a man who is lecherous,´.