It goes worse and worse with all lies...hmm

Yesterday, new lies from my relatives....Linette, my 17 year old daughter, came for a while talking to my mother about that she had changed the pants again, made them smaller...hahaha, made them smaller....she has become a bit bigger, I have proof by using the camera at christmas eve. All are liars and nothing else at all, making people believe that I am a liar instead. Why then?

The man who is haunting my daughter, tries to claim that he is going to get a child in secret with her, and he is NOT! The thing I woke up to today was a movie at tv..., talking about Dirty Dancing, which is mine and P.A:s song together, the song I sended to him via email in 2010, I talked about that he would (when he did not reply to me of some reason) regret it, and that he could have had "The Time Of His Life"...referring to this song. All this is rediciolus, a younger man trying to take his ID and using it frequently, saying I am jelouse at him and my daughter... Who the hxxx...is jelouse if one are a mother to a 17 year old girl, which he obviously is trying to get, to use my thinking idea....noway. Jelouse, is the wrong word, it is a catastroph.

I dont have to say much more, they will loose this game in the end, I am just trying to explain the truth. He is probably hungry for money, and nothing else. Wouldn´t surprise me if this man was the man using another ID at facebook, talking so bad about a "fucking woman with a metal ass" and another one "fat ass on her way to the gym in a car". He is totally cold as a person. This is NOT my P.A and all has its limits, one have to differ between jobs and private life.


Well, today, we have a bad weather in here, and I can only say I was about to blow away outside but I am grateful...I can breathe great air...(smile).

Heyy folks, yesterday, I got a feeling to sing for Mr Smile (Mr dance original, the tiny one)...again :-) Felt that I would love to meet him again, he is very kind I believe. So dearest, come dance with me again , or call me, or message me again, I just want to see your smile again and tell you something. As I said, I am not loving you yet, but it would not be impossible...I am sure of that now. :-)))

To all others, fans and friends, have a great week, soon we will celebrate NEW YEAR, wooohooo. Next year will be a GOOD year for me I believe. God loves me! :P

( He loves all who deserves it...) The world will see who is the liars in the end even though I may be forced suffering during the time for loading all proofs....but it is certainly worth it.

At pencil/
Sivan

The day before Christmas

YOU...(P.A), tomorrow it is Christmas Eve, another year without you and I still wonder why. There are things I would be able to do but I cant without your support, without you beside me. Without you I dont wantm I dont make this specific things (you know what it is...)

Everything is so strange now, not as last year, not as the year before that, much have changed and I have to...I dont get any order at all this around me, the "job-offers" and all....

I am not able to wake you up at christmas morning with coffee on bed (santa will give you, look above, hahaha), even though it would be my biggest wish, but I really wish you and others a great christmas. For you I wish that you are resting, that you are relaxing and just feeling good. I love you, and you know it.
Happy Christmas, come visiting and share the new year with me...dont be shy and afraid...

I have not had technical possibilities, neither any time left for making a christmas song for you, but I dedicate the lyrics and the best song I have in my player right now....
ADELE, ONE AND ONLY    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x4r-c4I_9Rc&feature=player_embedded

Yours, Sivan

My daughter Linette 17, was just calling me to ask how she can make tunafishmix (creme fraiche based mix).....I wonder why....because this is normally my thoughts for christmas (again...and again...and again). My oldest daughter are not coming with my grandson this year....just wished they could come and pick up his presents.

(Also wishing all others a great christmas, to my fans out there, I love you too, thanks for the charts you all have given me in soundclick.com/sivan. :-))))))))
/S

Dec 18, A Bleak Day in Östersund ;-))))

SNOW, SNOW, SNOW....Christmas Time comes closer. Yesterday I was cleaning up my oldie computer, sorted out some folders, burned over some new projects on cd and more....lets see if it can be ok now, so I can create some more music. :-)))

Regarding the thinking idea, I can only say that if this man/men who is working with it, could realise that if they only present negatives (as they claim I have been thinking), no one will believe it.. I have loved and I love this man Mr P.A, from here and there is nothing in this world changing it. =))))))) A promise is a promise and nobody can change Gods directions....it will be we, in the end, thats my believe whatever folks are saying and thinking. I am 47 years this upcoming Spring, and he is around 50, we really fit together.

I have told them many times, written, that I am often thinking around things, before I take my final descision in what to believe or not. I am more often thinking positives around my love, so it seems to me very strange that all they are presenting is that i am thinking bad things about him, and I DONT.

Sitting in my mums house right now and we are listening to X-factor. I miss some country singers, women and men.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=peXO9szVV7U&feature=player_embedded
In my player this day: Amy Winehouse -  Valerie





Kate Walsh - You Leave me Breathless You leave Me Breathless



Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me You Belong With Me


Brad Paisley - Old Alabama Old Alabama


Much Love and Kisses To YOU....
Sivan

Sick Game goes on..and on...and on.....

Take Me To Your Heart - http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=GKn3GGCbh_0


SOME UPDATES FROM MY LIFE....
The one who is trying to make people believe that I am sick in my head, is now investigating this on his own way. It has taken me some time to investigate how he is working. He is using things from before as I either have said no or yes to,  it can be offers, it can be other things. If I dont do the same way as I did before he claims I am sick. People in this house (some) I live are provoking me, often, using methods same as last year, same as before, and sometimes I remember myself that I have changed of many healthy reasons, and I dont do the same. That can be of reasons practical, economical or other things. I am not sick!

I also believe this man or this gang are trying to record me, with some medium I dont know, just recording the things they need after they have made me mad or sad, and leave the others out, just making it look like if I am changing in my head. A clear sick scitzo person, he changes all the time, if in a conversation he or she can change i the middle of a sentence, to start talking about something completely different---- I have been working myself within this, and I am not like that.

They are probably haunting me in this because there is a man who wants to take a job together with my daughter (rumors from facebook) instead of me, as he/they have promised me for 2 years ago...

This is the reason why they want me to look sick in my head, because the hospital are probably (rumors from an authority in here) making science on me, out of my allergias (against metal in my teeths, metals in my body and more). They well know I have periodical problems with my near memory , also problems with my ordinary one, mainly since the last two years but also before as I have had  hormone problems (since 2002), which affects the memory..

Last, it has begun in my apartment again, the bad dust, the dust in here comes from nickel, and I am allergic to that. This is a probable forcement just to get me to breath less, and get (forcement) into hospital! All who has been reading my blogs and facebook the last years, can see what this is all about.

They probably record me here, they accuse, and they just take the parts where it looks bad for them (this is my suspection). I have seen many times that they have tried me, they have tried my memory, and I am completely sure in my suspect that they are playing it up for others, to show their version...

The idea about to know what a person are thinking, is MINE and I am the one who has been promised to get a job, from those who has been working with this. Its a shame to try using my daughter to this matter, she is 17 and I really feel myself put behind.... I am ONE personality, I am not sick in my head. It is just that people cant take that I am tough and that I am an openminded person who tries to claim I have been treated unfair. Read all my old messages about this and you see, that all I am saying is true. I am a pick chicken, and they hate me in here.

What they have left now is to make people believe that I am a liar, and that I am scitzo, to get me into hospital and locked in, after this man can take my daughter abroad, with MY dreams, my ideas, my visions. This we must stop.

What I am offered THIS year may look different to last year, as things practically have changed in my life. Its simple to get that a person cant be the same, think they same way, if one WANT to see it......they omly seems to see their own versions...

I have (on request from others) once some years ago changed to a calm person, now it seems like they wanna see the fighter in me again, so lets go for the justice! I have said, I CAN BE WHAT THEY WANT. when it comes to jobs and others. My privacy is another thing..

For once, YOU....realise who loves you, and who´s gonna go with you.....
Happy Christmas week...and dont forget the ones who really cares about you....


Sivan

Sober, calm days before christmas 2011 ;-)))

I Love You - Celine Dion
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=CR3hg452VGc

I am more and more surprised each day I am growing inside. I feel such a happiness (at the same time a little bit sad for all the things people are trying to say about me) But its ok, I can take it, I am strong. I am trying to not mind about it anymore. This time it is that I am materialistic, and I am spending money all through. Yes of course I do right NOWfolks, I got a bigger sum for once in my life for a damage I have in my back side, and of course with my small income I am not making my day normally. Now I take the chance because it will be short, be sure. I dont earn much, about 7500 sek netto, my rent is over 6000...no kids now at home, no allowances for them. I dont know do i survive ahead, but I smile anyway, someone taught me once...;-)

THIS TIRESOME HOSPITAL STORY CONTINUES....

Some badly wants me into hospital, and it is so sick to haunt a healthy person this way, i am ready to rock and roll! I am ready to smile and jump, I am ready for life. They are harassing me every single day in my house, because they probably badly want me into hospital for science but it is ok, I am used since 2009..... I dont like the hospital thing..., I dont need it and i am out of there a long time ago.

I am in love as before again in my "oldie" Mr P.A B, Jämtland (around 50 years), I am back :-) So dont make me quit it one more time. I am not out that often these days, i am mostly at home watching tv. But this christmas I will give myself a good drink (christmas eve). Last year in 2010 I was out a a lot because i had not been out for many many years, so we were partying me and my friend, but now I am mostly sober and home all the time. But i will go for ordinary dance i think ahead, because I love to dance.

Well, I am happy and satisfied because a change does not mean you are mentally ill, a change depends in something beside which has made you change your mind, so if i change, i am not sick :-) Also folks, I dont suffer any schitzofrenia, this is just a bad rumor, and because some others wants to travel abroad on jobs instead of me. They have started good with closing me out from My Fight With Fat site here. He cant take the truth, that the thinking idea is mine and not my daughter Linettes (17)....I OWN it. ALL knows it, so it is not in need that people are imitatiing all in my life to make people believe that Iam reacting because i am sick. When it is all about thousands of imitations, it is no "one time thing" All in my family knows i own it, I deserve to go. If i would be sick, there are hospitals abroad. =)

SCITZOFRENIC

To be schitzofrenic, then you can change in the middle (I have worked at the psyche myself) of a sentence, just starting talking about something with no relevance or something different, you CLEARLY hear when a person is schitzo. So please stop making people believe that i am not able to work and go abroad! ALL knows which couple should go, and also i got a promise in here last year for this.....with m y love above

I have done ALL possible things I can do, but some are liars and are sending wrong info to the once who decides these jobs. One example is that I dont do things i am offered....well, i have had practical problems in the form of two wonderful kids and a dog at home, now they are all out....I have also had other issues to handle an apartment of 89 square metres and a 46 year long saving of things to get rid of....Its not easy to rush.... I am awake all days, i am not sleeping all the time as stated from some....at least underlying.....and i am exercising every single day in the week, now lost 16 kg in ab. 3 months!

Soo, ALL understands that the hospital are having other purposes (maybe other suggestions in new partners i DONT want, hahaha) than that i am so sick. And folks, as I said....there ARE hospitals out in the world if in need!!!

Wooohooooooo! Even though i am "harassed" every single day in  my house I stand it, I am stronger than ever and i am ready to go with my love (or anyone else possible FRIEND)

COME ONE NOW, LET ME GET PEACE FOR INSTANCE, YOU ALL KNOW IT IS WRONG TO SEND OTHERS...

All my family thinks I am NOT in need of going to the hospital, and also the municipality agreed with me the other day when i talked about this for them.

Now hospital...., let me be, leave  me alone, stop haunting me in.

And last....that I would (if this are having any relevance....and that i can relate to this film from yesterday about a fat man marrying a tough hard woman, and he made a by pass to fit her and their coming children....smile....but this willnever happen to me....its n o t in the fat it is.....its him. I dont like him simply because he did never give me respect last year. I love P.A.B, and no one else. (Have been talking about Mr dance Original, he is tall dark and tiny, and ok...if this was an offer, we could go abroad as friends, and later see what is happening) But I prefer the one I love and was promised to go with. Dont forget that I am the owner of this material which is the ground for all this thinking idea.

I am ready to go out in the world, so love...lets go! ;-)) Or, I´ll probably go by myself. Hope u liked my christmas wish to you! :-)

Kisses to all...and You

Sivan

Dec 9, A Good Day , simply ;-))))

Folks, have been making a simple (bad sound) video in swedish and english for all my friends online, including for the one I love. (I hope I now will be able to love him, without complaints and without forcing me to quit it more times). Its about respect folks...=)

BE PREPARED, THE SOUND IS NOT THAT GOOD
Wishing u all a good white christmas with only smiles and happiness :-)) In english and a short song clip

Sivans Christmas Wish To The World - http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=yhyJ9PJOjh4



,Sivans julhälsning till P.A och världen.....http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=zGHez17NJ4w



Toby Keith - How Do You Like Me Now  http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=3umaLe37-LE


About the thinking idea I have written about, they are still trying to convert my daughters ID to mine and mixing things up all the time in facebook....what I have been thinking, is put on her....of some reason I never will get. maybe more about this later....if I jhave power to write about it.

Kisses,
Sivan

DEC 5, A sad day, simply

Dec 5

SONG IN THE PLAYER "ITŚ YOUR LOVE, TIM MCGRAW".


Dont know how to start write this day
I feel confused, I dont know what I feel (100%)
I dont know why I am where I am emotionally today
I dont know what is happening at all, I have partly lost control
I like it but I dont like it.

Thereś a big wrong in me, I am too kind and I maybe also am I naiv.

ALL I ever have done is to search love in my life, nothing else, but it seems like I dont get anything back at all. I have loved two men the last two years, where one of them have been the main. All I seems to get back is negatives, at least from people who does not think we fit together at all. So today I dont know what I want. I dont have the power to fight against the mass all the time...

I am looking for a reality go any further, men must be present and to consider it as a natural relation it must be a commitment between. I can`t and I dont have power to live a life where I am standing in between all things. There has never been any other men, meaning anything to me, but these two ones.

One gave me a chance for a while, but when I did never understand what to do, something happened. I wrote him songs, I wrote about him, I wrote poems, I did what I could.. The other one (Mr Dance original, with the golden eyes and the smile I cant forget) he just disappeared, and I never had any chance to explain, to say what I needed to say to him, at least what I wanted to say....to feel good and to be able to go further, or let go as friends. I am in between all, and I really really loved that night at the dance floor. I liked him more than I ever could know. Maybe I did a wrong choice 2010 but dont blame me, I have also forgiven him for being so strange to me, I have written about him on my website, I have really tried to reach him, just to say what I need to say. I am so sad today.

I dont understand what I do wrong in life, I have raised, I have started to believe again, I have lost weight, I have tried it all. I am so sad, I cant do more.

Right now folks, I am walking the lonely peopleś street, I am not afraid but I dont deserve it, simply....I deserve more, and I have so much to give, so much love to share. I am sure, I know me, the real me, and noone else does.

What more could I have done for these two...? I dont know.

All my family are following me in this, I talked to my mum today, and she said it again...as last year, go there, maybe he will come to dance with you again. I dont have the hope for it anymore, not until I see it for real. The same with the other one...he is not present. Thats the wrong.

DEDICATING this song to them both, because I am really hurting....try to understand that my feelings is real, this is no joke.
Faith Hill - It Matters To Me



A sad day, simply
(With hope of a better day tomorrow....)
A short walk anyway in the snow today....=)
Sivan

This time we take it slow S...:-)

John Legend - Ordinary People




Ola - All Over The World (One of his promises to me..)  http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=Z1GgEzY60GM



Danny - If Only You ( One Of His "Teaching" songs to me...) http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=dChZmJTkdB0



Boyz II Men -  I Make Love To You (this lyrics is about my wishes....the dreams I have had and have..)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=fV8vB1BB2qc

Wishing you a lovely smile day :-)))
I love u my friend...S, You have always cared about me, in wet and dry
I appreciate it

I love you my love P..
Hugs winky winky ;-)
Sivan

New day , new lies....new tv-music, new idiots

GOOD morning, I am smiling!!!!!
Went to bed to get a sleep early this morning, as a SINGLE woman....I am STILL single, I can´t be lured anymore. Someone on tv has obivously their funniest days right now, with playing some "nice" files between the films, in the films, small small clips, trying to tell me love, trying to make me believe that I still have something with Mr P.A or Mr Dance (original) Sorry to those of you who did never read facebook.com/sivan.bostrom, because this is a marvellous story.....



Jesse McCartney - Its over

Richard Sandeson - Reality

Two men interested in me in 2010, one of them left for my daughter Linette 17....LOL....the other one I dont know....let me laugh, but at the same time cry, because its disgusting. I am happy she is 18 in april....so I dont have to have respons for her actions, if there are any truth behind.... She is like a slave today, going home to sleep at 21.00-22.00, have no teen life as before. He has totally washed her brain, as it seems. Cant find any other story reasonable. She is definitely NOT a shy teen, the opposite. SHE really knows what she wants.

Now he is mos probable using me for the thinking idea, to put her into me, so that he can travel around the world with her instead of me, as I own the idea. My friend Stefan knows all about this, how they are cooperating against me in the house (She moves out in a week, sadly but a need for both of us, obviosly) Money and fame is more than a  mother, if I will trust this rumors. She lighted two candles in her room today, dont know why as it was 08.30 in the morning! Normally she sleeps then.

Sad, but not broken anymore, I am more lucky without these "men", haunting me around trying to get me sick so that the hospital can take me in, its a shame never seen before. Happy we have a law, telling I am deciding myself if I go or not.

Sooo Stefan stefan , I sur will go with you, lets see what is happening dear :-)

MORNING, first day of snow today in Östersund.

One more special "winkiwink" for the night (RUN, Sugarland)

YOU DRIVE ME CRAZY.....



Forgot it, did not check until tonight, saw a link and remembered. Goooshhh,....
The condtions has changed....dont worry....:) No more comments needed.
Leaving it in a special space, for you :-)
Unbelievable...I cant breathe.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SRUCgpOv9Ck


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v4CWiDZZDRE



/S

Advent 1 (2011) imorgon :-)))

Hej alla advent firare

Kvällen har bjudit pa nedladdningar av en del Linux operativ system, ska prova ut en del har jag tänkt. Ocksa planerat in ett julbak med glutenfria lussebullar imorgon, far se om jag kan efterleva detta, haha.....(zzzzz....zzzz......zzzzzzzzzzzzzz :-) Ska ocksa bjuda nagon pa middag här,om det gar, innan jag planerar aka....


Kvällens grogg: Grönt te i massor :-) Behöver rensa systemet ifran diverse...
Kvällens maträtt:  Arets första Janssons! Wohooooo :-)
F ö, smider reseplaner med in bästa vän Stefan, kanske Spanien eller Italien, vi far se, annars far jag välan resa själv. Folk här kommer aldrig ändra asikt om mig vad än jag gör sa, schwissssssss, on the air, to the freedom and a new life. Must be best. For all.

Kvällens lat maste bli.....:



FOR LITTLE "OLD" ME






Önskar alla en fin advent imorgon, och behall smilet folk, le och du far ett leende tillbaka :-))))))))
Manga galna advent Kraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamar
(When I am at my best ;-)
/Sivan

The thinking idea, written of me many years ago

http://www.dn.se/resor/kryssning/fullpackad-frihet-pa-fantasia
Look, this is one of my dreams, to go by boat (honeymoon) after marriage in a train, where the man propose to the girl first in a train. I am still 46 years, I am still Sivan and not Linette 17. My youngest Elin, is 14 years and she is not Linette. Fantasia is also my name suggestion on the boat they have stolen, I have thought about it a long time back in time.....

I wrote an idea many years ago, about a connection between the stomage and the brain, so called signals, where u can count day by day through checks and controlling of the person, what she does, what she says, movements and others. When u move - the brain gives one signal, when moving a finger the same,  u can catch it by putting an electronic thing and an isotope camera inside the persons body (is used by doctors for other purposes normally). Day by day through studying the persons behaviour, you can easily read out the signals for other things too, it takes a long time but this is what they have done, and try to steal from me now, as far as I have understood, as they put me out.

Someone picked this idea up and have made research on it during all these years without my knowledge. Later they "forced" (suggested hardly) me into facebook, from a music site, and there used me and tried to convince me that if I did some things I would be able to go to Spain, Italy and US,Also France to continue my music production and much more....

Now of any reason they have changed their minds and are trying to use my daughter Linette 17, instead. They are trying to put my ID as Sivan 46 years, on her, she is 17. Its intended that she will be the one (even though I own the idea) who next year when she is 18, and can get married, will go with a man I started to love, at least this is the rumors. He must really hate me, and have duped her. I dont know, but this is a sensation and now and ahead I will put out the most of the things I am thinking on this site, sivanto.se, soundclick.com/sivan, and finally facebook.com/sivan.bostrom.

After a two year long "relation" online, he is accusing me of being a cheater, because others have most probable been filming me in secret from my bedroom. I can only laugh and say, with my low income it would be a joke to say that I had done any "sex business" in my apt. I earn about 7500 SEK netto and my rent is 6000......I have never had a man in this house as this is an agreement between me and my kids.

The one has made sites on the net, about my "sleeping", that I cant "get out of bed" and be a happy woman....well....if one cant sleep at nights because it is disturbing sounds, and they are using the electricity here (I proved that before on this blog by showing a temp counter which showed minus 37-38 degrees. THAT does not happen if the electricity is normal...also we have sensor based electricity in here so when  person comes in to the house the lights works - there between they dont. BUT, at nights the lights is ON all the time, fixed. Sometimes it is very hard to sleep because it is a stinging feeling all over the body. Also, to wait 2 long years for a man who never shows up, this can cause many tears and is fully normal.

My seenteen year old daughter has recently got an apartment from our municipality landlord (the one who closed me out for things we argued about 2007, a barking dog and chats with my daughter), in exactly the same place whih was my dream to live. My oldest daughter Sandra, she got a son, just as I wished 5 years ago...my friend Monica got a summer house close to the Storsjön lake, which also was my dream....so they 

hate me. Are u beginning to realise that this municipality is making me wrongs? Was I right all these years? Yes I was. And how can I feel lust to improve, when thea are never satisfied with anything I do. I am happy most of the days, I go out meeting people, always with a smile on my face, but I will never be enough in here. I am just trying to survive...

NOW AND START OF NEXT YEAR
Its intented that it now will look as if I am my daughter, interested in fashion. SHE now goes on a fashion school here in Östersund, Sweden. Later they intend to go to Paris, Roma and US California, according to the proofs I can see in facebook, use all my ideas as I have been wishing.



MY MUSIC
I had a police report in,  for stealing of my music, and also for harassments and the things I am carrying in my body right now, which most probably were put in when I made an abortion many years ago....I know this doc, if so.

Later (cant do it now) I will put out proofs for people that I wrote this idea many years ago, and also I will try to daily focus on what I am thinking and report it here. Later look on the web and see how much they steal from me. Compare the newspapers AFTER I have written about it, Check the paper before u check my site, then u have the proofs needed.

And me? Well, they try every day here to put me into hospital, saying that I am psycho sick. Of course, this is a million trillion dollar idea....and I OWN IT.

I think i will get myself a lawyer now
I am tired of this using of my life.

Once hated, always hated, because I dont weep the floor with them. I am very sad of that. But I have my on body and life toc are, the only thing I have left. I am carrying that.

Sivan

DAGENS KLOTTER 56 - EN UNDERBAR DAG! :-)))

Hej alla
Skriver pa svenska även om jag saknar vissa bokstaver. Vilken underbar dag, tacksam för att jag lever idag :-) bantningen gar förträffligt, alltid nagot, hahaha. Har tappat cirka 15 kg nu och mera ska det nog bli, ska försöka iallafall. Fortsätter mina promenader, dagligen, runt 30, 45 minuter.

IDAG  ÄR EN KUL DAG, har sett världens snyggaste polis...haha... wohoooo ;-)))säger inte vart men delar gärna med mig av mina "freak outs". Man fyller ju snart 47....sa det är bäst att passa pa att leva....kika gar ju alltid ;-)))) Kram ;-)

Imorgon planerar jag att ga ut pa krogen, se mig omkring lite, man är ju singel (iallafall in real, lol). Försökt na dottern idag men hon är säker upptagen med alla sina kompisar redan.

Har f f ont i ryggen och nacken, denna förb...laptop som jag maste böja mig ner för att se texten pa skärmen för....bättre med en staionär dator känns det som om.

F ö , har varit pa Ö&B och köpt en städmopp, och lite vitaminer, sköööön promenad.

DAGENS VAL AV MELODIER MASTE BLI....;-)

DAGENS KLOTTER 56 - EN UNDERBAR DAG! :-)))

Hej alla
Skriver pa svenska även om jag saknar vissa bokstaver. Vilken underb dag, tacksam för att jag lever idag :-) bantningen gar förträffligt allti nagot, hahaha. Hat tappat cirka 15 kg nu och mera ska det nog bli, ska försöka iallafall. Fortsätter mina promenader, dagligen, runt 30, 45 minuter.

IDAG  ÄREN KUL DAG, har sett världens snyggaste polis...haha... wohoooo ;-)))säger inte vart men delar gärna med ig av mina "freak outs". Man fyller ju snart 47....sa det är bäst att passa pa att leva....kika gar ju alltid ;-)))) Kram ;-)

Imrogon planerar jag att ga ut pa krogen, se mig omkring lite, man är ju singel (iallafall in real, lol). Försöktna dottern idag men hon är säker upptagen med alla sina kompisar redan.

Har f f ont i ryggen och nacken, denna förb...laptop som jag maste böja mig ner för att se texten pa skärmen för....bättre med en staionär dator känns det som om.

F ö , har varit pa Ö&B och köpt en städmopp, och lite vitaminer, sköööön promenad.

DAGENS VAL AV MELODI MASTE BLI....;-)

Underlying death threats put out from Ginza Music and more... in facebook

STARTING WITH A LINK SO THAT U PEOPLE CAN UNDERSTAND THAT A PERSON IS RELATING TO DIFFERENT KINDA MUSIC IN LIFE, SO I AM NOT SICK, i HAVE BEEN TAUGHT IN FACEBOOK TO COMMUNICATE CIA MUSIC ALREADY IN 2009
http://www.adelefournet.com/blog/2010/06/how-do-we-relate-to-music-how-can-we-study-this-relationship/

NOW TO THE THING, ITSELF
http://www.lyricsfreak.com/a/accept/fast+as+a+shark_20003529.html
Well! What do one say?????

Look here, what they are putting out in Facebook, after I have revealed the truth! Underlying death threats all the time, that I am a looser. To make it, they are using song titles all the time, as I have claimed before.
So folks, I suppose my daughter Linette will take over my accounts , and they will kill me. It sounds odd but she has made a fake site in facebook where she is talking good bye of me in a lyric....
https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=651602068

Soo, I am afraid they will kill me,. look now, spread this. I have a friend Stefan, I will arrange a link to u all to him for verification if u wanna check it is really me behind the computer. I have a gang in the south of Sweden, they have all the copies needed for proving that I am the one who has written the idea about how u can see what  person is thinking. I did many years ago. Look the earlier posts.
They are trying to put me off this, just read below. Doing a thing once, twice, third time....it is temporary things, but not in ALL messages in facebook. This is called harassments of first degree, underlying threats. I have talked about them before and now they are desperately in need of me because they want me to give them proof in facebook,  so they can change the ID from my daughter Linette, to me, from me to her. Change the time table, simply. That all what was happening in 2010, will look like if it was her doing it all the time. And it was me! I was the one he loved, he promised me trips, he promised me to travel around the world with a song (Ola, Travel with me all over the world") I cant believe my daughter are doing this to me. She must be sick. This is one of the fake sites they are using, IF it is still left....below is the "harassments", and this is only two of hundreds they have made during these 2 years I have had suffered...


https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=651602068

How can one hurt an already hurted woman like this. Copy from facebook

http://www.facebook.com/sivan.bostrom (contact me if u dont see the page offline, e x u have to login to see it...)
zivanto (at) gmail (dot) com
THIS IS A BIT FROM THE FIGHT I AM FORCED WITHIN IN FACEBOOK, THE RIGHT TO LOVE  A MAN WHO HAS PROMISED ME THE WORLD IN 2010.....THE RIGHT TO BE ABLE TO WORK, THE RIGHT TO MY PROPERTY. BE SURE THIS WILL BE OFFICIAL IN THE WHOLE WEB SOON if they dont change and giving me my rights!!!! PEOPLE WILL LEARN TO BE HONEST. BE SURE,

THE USE OF MY PROPERTY, THOUGHTS AND ALL AROUND ME
This is a big fight about someone who claims he knows what I am thinking. The idea about to connect a device in a persons body, then via signlas and to check how the person is acting during a long time, one can read out what  the person is thinking. After this u can use movements too, when u check out the signals for ex. how I move my left finger, u can check how it looks if moving two, ot three. By observing a person during a long time (which they have been doing with me, u can reveal whats going on in the inside of the brain. I wrote this article many years ago after having been studied on the web. Someone stole it without my knowledge, and here all began. I was into a facebook group, they have harassed me all the time, making me believe that I am sick in my head and in need of a psycho doc! Of course! They want to steal the idea forever, this is a million dollar project! AND IT IS MINE!!!! 
They are now trying to put me off as it seems, and I have no rights to love the man I love even though he likes me, they force him to do things he dont want.

THE STORY, SHORTLY

As many of u already know I am a singer, I am often singing in my home, karaoke songs

based upon Elvis. I have seen on youtube, when I have been singing some songs, suddenly they are taken away, very strange.....Now to the songs which I am claming is in use, pointing at me all of them. If it was a few I would not react but as it is many of the songs P.A was playing for me, and all the artists and songs I am singing, I feel it like if it would point at me. People are even trying to change my daughter Linettes ID to mine. (Remember I wrote abotut he ID card theft in my home, my driving licence) Last night I watched the final program of True Talent, a program they promised me to be within already in 2010. Later I saw an upnosed page at soundclick about a man who was in his bed all days, ok, ok, that can be a temporary thing, but....poiting too much to me and my life.

I have been lying in bed (ME, not my daughter Linette) because of my sickness, I have problems with my backside and hard to sleep. It began in 2002, when I got hormone problems...but have increased because of harassing neighbours and other issues. When I watched this program last night I heard most of the songs he played for me, or the songs I am singing myself here in my home.

1. The sun will shine for u (P.A played it for me)
2. A whiter shade of pale (my favorite karaoke song)
3. Grenade (P.A played it for me often)
4. I have nothing, Whitney Houston (Among my favorite youtube songs I am playing)
5. The winner takes it all (A big karaoke song for me as I am singing, have it on youtube too....)
6. Gloria (This song was played for me several times via radio from P.A) Is about to step up and out of the „prison“. It was already 2009/2010
7. Emelie, Both sides now,(this song can be about that I am choosing side, right or left (all knows what I am talking about)

USING MY ID, TO PUT IT TO MY DAUGHTER LINETTE

I suspect (strongly) that they are planning to use her, make it look like if they now are starting with her weight loss, she has a false ID here as I put out yesterday, and she is at the site for My Fight With Fat. He has now blcoked me to write at the site, because he wants her more than me, even though (probably him) he gave me so big promises in 2010 about trips, singing, love, summer houses and more. I believe they are recording my voice from here, in any way, mystic cars have been outside here and I think they are planning to record my vocie what I am saying and later claim it is Linette, as they now count with that i am going into hospital , soon. Suddenly they changed her look from trying to excercise to being a fat young woman lying in her bed all days (yeah she does, but she is out and excersizing every day, walks, and the gym) In Soundclick yesterday (they are using song titles as a command or to speak with people (I dunno why) they had a song called „Just walk on by“, looks like the same I got from P.A last year when he said to me „Keep On Walking“, he wanted me to loose weight, for a job....

WHEN I AM GOING TO BED AT NIGHTS

They are playing (whilst using this electricity I have told several times) songs like „Big girls dont cry“, and „Smile“ of Michael Bolton, just now to keep me from crying when it hurts in my body, just to make it look like if I am happy and she is in the same stadium as i was before. They are taking things back in time, trying to re.arrange it, making it look like if it was Linette all the time. Boltons songs, is the songs I am singing at home, his soul album....

WHY THEN?

Because the one who is sending information to the other ones who decides this jobs, are a liar. He has claimed I am in bed all days out of nothing at all. NOW I can tell I am not! I am in bed because I am bored to wait for him, I am bored not have anything to do, I have been waiting him for 2 long years and I WONT let go any more. I have done it twice on demand....Because if this rumors I have lost chances to get this job I wanted so bad, because a liar have told the people I am not suitable, because he wants to go with my daughter and get a child with her. THAT was my wish! He is circulating all around MY life, it is not the first time......2010, my other daughter was about to perform in the local big new theatre here, I was looking forward to hear it, because she is a good singer and only 14 years old. Then he used ALL the songs there too, circulating around me, just to hurt me, finally in the end it was about that it was over between us....WHO is this man, and what the hell is all this about???

MY MUSIC

I suspect they now will try to change my voice in my songs, to a higher or lower voice level, later use my children to either stand for the music, or perform with my backing vocals. I dont know, but this is quite obvious that they are taking all away from me! Its easy to change voice levels on people....higher or lower! I have been fighting, and fighting, and fighting for my life, for my music and for a future of my children and I only ask if they want us all in a shame, because now they are forcing me to reveal all I know in how they are working on the web within this. We know the whole concept how they are using song titles, and all others......

THE BEST NOW

I have passed ALL tests in here, I have shown u all that I can back down, i am strong, I am happy and today I am very happy inside, and feeling good! I did not in 2009, I did NOT in 2010. But today in 2011, I have taken advices from u all in here, I have listened to my inner voice, my heart, started to believe again in 2010, as I lost when I was a young girl. I have offered u all to make anything u like, just I was not able to let my apartment go away.... I could not of a special reason... The offers I have got have been so short, and they have made it look like if I did never pass them, the same they did the other day when I made an sms to P.A to show him that I am passing. They mixed up my phone,and just when I sent the mess, the connection changed, it closed, and a while later it opened again. U dont need to be a technician to reveal that move! So i have to contact him again.....in other ways.

MARRIAGE

I believe there is a doctor waiting for me, trying to psyhologically force me to marry him, and it wont happen, if so, love free relation, static, planned. That I could accept. But, for love, there is only one man for me. P.A B, östersund Jämtland. He has promised me a life with him, and I know he likes me a lot, I saw it last time we met. Just a couple of months ago.

A BABY BOY

Now the rumors says to me that my daughter is going to have a baby boy (the same as they did with my oldest daughter Sandra when I said I wanted a baby boy) She got one, and now I believe they will try to hurt me and make Linette pregnant with my love. I dont know, but it looks like that.

WHY are u all hurting me so much? What did I do? No one ever told me when to do things, and no one ever believed in me when I said I cant leave my apt. I offered u all to use me outside the house to anything u wanted, but NOT in my house. From the start I did not even understand where to go and how to go.....All this would be a secret if folks one single could tell me something they do BEFORE they do it, so that I have a chance to participate and be good.

EXCERSICING

I am walking every single day in the week, except for som days, I am also training inside the house, stretching e t c. That was the demand to get the jobs, and I have lost about 15 kg in 3 months!

Now I ask myself, what the hell do u all want more from me???

Why are u bullying people?

Why are u putting them out, after having been fighting to get one in?????

I really dont get this. I will never get it.

But, I have sent an sms, if it reached P.A, told him about all this, and if he would want to get rid of me, he would call me and say goodbye. As long as he dont do that, he is my guy, he is the one I love and the one I want to travel with....like is was decided in 2010. There is nothing more to discuss, the idea about that someone knows what I am thinking, I own, me Sivan Maria Boström, and no one else will be able to use it. Be sure.If they want to take my daughter into fashion in Paris, go for it! But, not with my love. Not with my property (the thinking idea). This should be for me, P.A and the docs involved, firstly...PSST, wanna say that I dont suffer any „need of control“, what u are given and whats thrown in your mouth when it comes to absurd things, yout HAVE to check out, as a parent. Thats it. So now stop all this shit talking and bullying, and get me a job!

Thanks a lot... (have been waiting a long long long time)

HOW can pople go behind my back for so long time, just to put me OFF?

I dont understand these evil ones...

Unpatient now, but happy that I made it, finally! =)

This man is not going to cause me any more heart hurts!!!! (So many nights I have been crying, ask my neighbours)
This link is to the facebook version

Sivan

DAGENS KLOTTER 55, New harassments

I AM GIVING UP!!!! MR DANCE, I HAVE BEEN PUT BEHIND BY PEOPLE IN MY LIVING AREA, I GLADLY ARRANGE SOMETHING WITH YOU!!! WE CAN BE FRIENDS IF YOU LIKE IT SO. THEY ARE PLAYING GAMES HERE ALL THE TIME IN MY HOUSE AND ON THE NET. THEY MADE ME BELIEVE THAT YOU WANTED MY MONEY, THE OTHER REASONS I DONT PUT ONLINE TODAY, BUT AS YOU KNOW ME, YOU ALSO KNOW HOW MY LIFE HAS BEEN BACK IN TIME... THATS THE REASON.. I WANTED TO SHOW THE WORLD THAT I AM CHOOSING SOMETHING IN MY LIFE MYSELF, FOR INSTANCE AND MR P, I REALLY LOVED AND LOVE. BUT IT SEEMS HARD TO GET MY ONLY WISH IN LIFE, FOR REAL.

I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE ALWAYS WANT TO DESTROY FOR ME. I JUST SAY SORRY IF YOU MR DANCE ARE INNOCENT TO THESE THINGS THEY TRIED TO MAKE ME BELIEVE. I AM THE ONE TRAVELLING, NOT MY CHILDREN OR ANYONE ELSE. AS THEY HAVE CLOSED FACEBOOK TEMPORARY FOR US, I CANT REACH YOU OR ANYONE ELSE. I WRITE HERE. NOW YOU KNOW. I CAN ONLY SAY, IF I TRAVEL, I DO IT N O W. I DONT WAIT FOR THIS 2 MORE YEARS WITH ALL WHAT ITS PAIN INCLUDES. I JUST WONDERING WHY YOU APPEAR NOW, AFTER 1 LONG YEAR. IS NOT THAT STRANGE IN MY EYES, YOU THINK...AN EXPLANATION HERE WOULD BE APPRECIATED, AS I GAVE YOU ALL CHANCES TO CONTACT ME LAST YEAR. I ALSO WAITED FOR YOU ON THE DANCE, SEVERAL TIMES.

ITS A SHAME THAT I CANT USE THE SITES DIRECTLY FOR THE PURPOSES IT IS MEANT FOR, BUT I WANT MY FANS TO KNOW ABOUT HOW I AM TREATED, BECAUSE THIS DELAYS MY MUSIC A LOT AND DOES N O T DEPEND IN ME.

TAKE CARE OF YOU
SIVAN

DAGENS KLOTTER 54, harassments again....

Hi there all.
To get peace and calm 2011 took me to higher wishes than what is for real.....

Have been wakening up here in my apartment from disturbing neighbours. I have been put out from facebook because of that some people with power probably have been lying about me and told unfair things. I have not done anything at all. Yesterday, I contacted my operator for the third time because someone tried to login to my facebook account, Have NOT been logging in for some days there!! . I checked the IP and it came from the same operator. They have NO answer in why...strange.

Well, anyway, some people hates me and tries to put me off facebook and my music, because I am uncomfortable for them, because I tell the truth. It is a shame how a person trying to get out with her music, is treated this way and rejected. Accused for lying, accused for being sick and all others from heaven to earth. That besides all other things like harassments and others. The latest now is that all people are trying to play stupid, asking me for my personal number several times during a phone call, several times trying to convince others that I am sick in my head.

I have several years of hormon balance problems. Since 2002 I have had a specialist in here treating me. I have old allergies, against some metals and also already in 1999 they had to close the lamps in the classroom because I got problems with my head and eyes. I could not take the electric streams.

Again it is a shame from these people. I dont consider me as stupid at all. I have co operated with people and done everything possible in earth to get them satisfied. The demands was to loose weight, stop smoking, be nice, and God should know I have tried. But I got a message that it was “ already decided “ that I should fall as artist.....

Is it fair that I have people in facebook telling me that they know what i am thinking, without telling the world about it. I wrote an idea many years ago, someone stole it and used it. Today they are not man enough to tell all people about it. It is a connection between the brain and the stomage, where signals can reach the brain and tell what you are thinking. As far as I have heard, a doctor here has been working with movements, and another one with the connection.  Remember this, because this is the reason from this man in why I am put off facebook. Believe me, I can show up documents as a proof if needed. Two years I have been fighting with them, because they dont want this official. In public. I gave a suggestion that we could sit together and talk about it but they refuse that of some reason I never will get. Unfortunately, me and my friends will now go further with this idea ourselves.

The documents about this I wrote many years ago, is stolen many years ago via the web or via a computer brake in I had. Someone used the idea and now we will see if Sweden will let me out abroad to prove it......

As far as I have heard underlying in facebook, they will try to stop me, or accuse me for some crime. I am sure people know me after all these years on the web, so I am not worried at all.

peace and LOVE
Sivan

Harassments and a temporary closed facebook!

Hi there all. Have been wakening up here in my apartment from disturbing neighbours. I have been put out from facebook because of that some people with power probably have been lying about me and told unfair things. I have not done anything at all. Yesterday, I contacted my operator for the third time because soemone tried to login to my facebook account, with the same operator as me. I checked the IP and it came from the same operator. They have NO answer in why...strange. Well, anyway, some people hates me and tries to put me off facebook because I am uncomfortable for them, because I tell the truth. It is a shame how a person trying to get out with her music, is treated this way. That besides all other things like harassments and others. The latest now is that all people are trying to play stupid, asking me for my personal number several times during a phone call, several times trying to convince others that I am sick in my head. I have several years of hormon balance problems. Since 2002 I have had a specialist in here treating me.
           

               
My facebook page is FaceBook Are there anyone out there able to help me get rid of this persons harassing me all the time, year after year, contact me a s a p.BE HONEST! SHARE LOVE - NOT WAR! Kisses / Sivan

DAGENS KLOTTER 52 / Hur jag lever i Sverige

ATTENTION!!!!!! THERE IS A RUMOR TELLING THAT WE ARE UNDER HUMAN TRAFFICKING, AND SCIENCE...AND THAT IF I GET ENOUGH WITH METALS IN MY BODY THEY WILL SEND ME FOR A SURGERY IN ENGLAND!!!!
THIS IS A SHAME AND I AM SEARCHING FOR THE GENERAL PUBLIC HELP IMMEDIATELY!  IF THEY LET ME OUT....THEY HAVE THREATENED ME UNDERLYING WITH MANY THINGS...


I just wanted to make an update to all people in the world. I am sending up pictures showing the accusations about my psychological health, according to me, I dont suffer it.

Mainly the last 6 years I have suffered small bumps in my body, which I asked the docs for in 2006. There was not anything dangerous, the doc said. Today I have a hard time to breath, if this is because of this matter, if it is cancer or something with  metastasis
I dont know...or maybe because of the air in my apartment. They refuse me a new one...

I have had eczemas, hurting the stomage, could not make the daily naturals in a natural way..headache, my eyesight is worse than before with small particles in the eyes hurting, pain in the backside and neck, I hear a creaking sound when I turn my neck and backside. Infections and fungus....the list is long. All is imaginative according to the hospital in here.

Ok ok folks, I will show it in pictures, harassments against me and my family, rumors about human trafficking is out , I dont know what to believe. I was about to take a loan many years ago but they answered me with, sorry, because of your health problems we could not approve your application. What! After I cancelled my donate promise for all the family and they got irritable, told me that I SHOULD investigate what the local hospital or health care
were doing. Well....I still wonder.


Lately, the last 2 years, a group on facebook have haunted me as a person and are putting out clear underlying threats against me. I have contacted Civil Rights Defenders, they will be back to me

I still need help, to get out of here, this is soooo sick, I need a doctor immediately.

There is also possible to view them on facebook



Please help me
Below pictures showing how I look, and how it is.
I dont stand this anymore.
Sivan

                                                bruisings without reason

 Blood on my mums sofa when coming home, no one was bleeding...

 Black dangerous dust, I have a hard time to breath in here sometimes

Eruptions in the whole face, fluid is flooding out from the face and it hurts a lot.

 Metal pieces in the cigarettes filter

 Metal pieces in the cigarettes filter

mold when we moved in...had to clean up, still we have black deposits with a fat area in our bathroom after the water......below, has to do a surgery for gall problems, have never eaten fat food...

Wood pieces in the cigarettes tobacco....

Eczemas? Metal rests? There is not any fungal, this is checked.....whats inside my head?

eczemas

THERE IS A RUMOR TELLING THAT WE ARE UNDER HUMAN TRAFFICKING, AND SCIENCE...AND THAT IF I GET ENOUGH WITH METALS IN MY BODY THEY WILL SEND ME FOR A SURGERY IN ENGLAND!!!!
THIS IS A SHAME AND I AM SEARCHING FOR THE GENERAL PUBLIC HELP IMMEDIATELY

TO REACH ME
46702100136
Email> musicblogging@gmail.com
But they check the email so if you dont get an answer....
call..